This year i must accept that my inner circle is getting smaller and smaller. To be precise, one by one has moved forward to brighter future and i could not be happier for them.

But ..unfortunately i will not be the person who stand by their side to celebrate the trophy .

Because i am merely imperfect human with toxic traits. It won’t be fair to suddenly become evil around them who had been nice and gone down through the dark times.

This year i must accept that the only dream that keeps me going never be real. It hurts so much deep inside to reminded by reality that humans can make plan, but only God who decides. Demo, daijoubu desu. I have God and all family members by my side who love me unconditionally.

I am forever thankful

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I want to thank everyone who wish me happiness, great prosperity and good health on my 24th birthday. Your thoughtful messages make my heart so full.. Actually, there are some people i did not expect that eventually DMed me and wished a happy birthday. I did not see that coming…

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Teplo.

My father used to call me Teplok which in Javanese means oil lamp (mostly has small size). It has illuminated for thousands of years ago and continues to this day. I have always been a little bit annoyed whenever he called me with nickname not until understand what it means.

“He wished me to light up the world continuously despite my tiny figure” just like teplo.

The light intensity may differs throughout the time, but i hope it will get brighter and brighter

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Welcoming my third account on this platform because once it started to get acknowledged by acquaintances I felt so ashamed and stop typing. Some writings are not meant to be shared but here i am trying to let it out all over again.

I never feel confident with my writing though i have the urge to write. Nevertheless, i hope that i could improve it one step at a time.

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